This morning I am at a low. I am struggling. I am tired of the defiance. I don't want to deal with children who defy me at every opportunity. I am tired of being a jailer.
First Dimples was banned from playing outside without direct supervision. Next Lily was banned from the same do to very inappropriate behaviors. I guess they didn't realize that we actually do watch them when they are outside.
Then the spitting.....yuck.
The "no" to my face.
The total disregard for anything I say.
If you tell them to do something, they do the opposite. If you tell them to not do something, they will find a way to do it.
Their bedrooms are barren. This bothers me because I love to fill kids rooms.
John has offered to give his office up so that Lily can be moved downstairs. I hate to do this! She uses the distance for defiance.
Yes, they tell me over and over that they love me. Many times a day. Do I think that they love me? No. I know that they are saying it to keep me attached, they are not attached to me. It is a manipulation.
How do you attach and love a child who is so difficult? How do you help with the lack of attachment?
Yes, today I am struggling.