Yesterday the girls social worker came for a visit. It was supposed to be visitation day but with dad in jail and mom a no-show there was no visitation. Apparently as I was writing about my frustration about no date we received one! We have a pretrial hearing in September and a TPR date of November. However, if they determine that we need longer time then the TPR will be moved to 2013. I do believe that our case will be moved to 2013.
I actually find that sad. Of those 9 grounds for termination, this case has 5. There is not much doubt that TPR will happen, it is just a matter of when.
I talk a lot about Michelle and her great desire to be adopted but I don't talk about Dimples much. Mainly because she doesn't talk about it as much and she doesn't understand it well. Most of the time she will simply state that when we start calling her Emma Rose she will know that she is adopted.
When she does say her little comments about it I realize just how much she doesn't understand in spite of all the conversations we have had. Last night I was upstairs working in Sarah's bedroom painting the bathroom when Dimples came in for a good night hug. She asked me if this was going to be their bedroom. I sad no, that Sarah was coming back. We had talked about putting the three girls in the bigger bedroom but I just don't think that they would do well with the bathroom attached. I did tell her that maybe when she was older this would be her bedroom. Then she looked at me and asked me where she would sleep when she got a mom. Such sad words to me, she just doesn't believe that I will be her mom.
Today my husband and I are travelling 2 1/2 hours away to attend their permanency planning hearing. It may not even take place if parties don't show up, but we will be there. We may be given an opportunity to speak. I hope that we do, I have a few words I would like to say.