For a period of time John had Larissa in his office and all throughout the house you could hear her crying. Very woeful, desperate sounding crying. There were no reasons for these tears. She said that all the kids were being mean to her. She looked as though she could jump out of her skin. I had a teen ask me what was up. I told her that Larissa can't control it. Imagine that irritable mood you get monthly and then magnify it 10 fold. Imagine getting no relief and living with it every day of your life.
We felt so helpless. I walked in at one point and John was feeding her his prized potato chips. It did stop the crying. Someone seeing that thinks that we spoil her. We have been TOLD by others that we spoil her. She is actually our hardest child. Mix a mother who drank when pregnant with some seizures, anxiety, hyper, impulsive, sensitivity and bipolar dad and you have our Larissa. I think that I talk about her the most because she requires the most. She requires a full time mom to keep her even. She desperately needs both me and my husband. She has such a need. She came to our house a baby who had not been held. Her bucket has never been filled. She still wants carried even though she will soon be taller than me.
She has a psychiatrist appointment later this month. My mission is to get her put on bipolar meds or I will change doctors. He wants to change up the anxiety meds but I feel as though it is making it worse. He did put Anthony on some bipolar meds and it made a world of difference for him. I pray that she can get some of the same relief. The diagnosing doctor told us that her type of bipolar was going to be worse than his. I thought at the time that he was crazy but I am see that his words were true.
I am getting my notes in order:
Very Common Symptoms of Childhood Bipolar Disorder
•Rages & explosive temper tantrums (lasting up to several hours)
Can last for hours
Irritated by siblings 20 feet away looking at her or breathing.
•Frequent mood swings
You can sit back on a rainy Saturday and just watch them, it is heartbreaking
Frequently, one reason her ADHD meds have been changed three times this year
Very much so
•Silliness, goofiness, giddiness
More sweet craving
Do crying periods that last over an hour count (for nothing that we can pinpoint)
When she isn’t bouncing off the walls
Yes, hates her hair, thinks she needs to lose weight, that something is wrong with her.
•Difficulty getting up in the morning
Selective Mutism treated with anxiety medications
•Oversensitivity to emotional or environmental triggers
Oh, yes!! If at the wrong time someone says anything to her she cries for hours saying that they are being mean. Any and all attempts at convincing her that they did not in fact say anything mean will be met with tears.
After some good mama lap time she tried to smile Saturday
One of the girls had written in her book that she got from Kathy Cassel so I took her to the Christian Book Store and let her get a few new books. This brought her joy. Yes, she is spoiled.