I know I said that we weren't going to take in older children. Well, I guess I have to eat those words. Yesterday we received a call from DSS asking us to take a 13 year old girl. I said that we were already over by one. They begged and said it was just for the night, they would pick her up in the morning. They needed a place to put her for the night until they could find a permanent foster home.
As usual I said yes. After all, just one night. That one night has now turned into a week. But it should only be a week since they did find a foster home willing to take her. They are on vacation until next Thursday.
I actually like this girl. Michelle has followed her a little but isn't as obsessed as she has been with some other older folks. I have banned Michelle from being upstairs unless it is bedtime. This child is African American and I think that has made a difference with Michelle. If we weren't full I wouldn't mind keeping her as a foster placement. But, it isn't meant to be.
We had a visit from our adoption licensing worker last week. We have to do the homestudy all over again. For the fourth time I have to get letters of references. I am not sure which of my friends would still be willing to vouch for my sanity. I did receive a positive response on facebook so that should be covered. I have some physicals to do and lots of paperwork. I haven't even started. Honestly, I am conflicted. They want us to stop taking foster children after our current kids leave. They want us to maintain our foster license but keep our one opening open. I understand why, if we wanted to accept an adoption placement we would have to have the foster placement moved.
My problem is I find it hard to say no when a kid needs a safe place to land. They call us now even though we are full. I know that when these kids leave they will try to fill that spot with another sibling group. I am not sure how long I will be able to say no. If we sit empty for long I know that I will cave in. I wonder if we shouldn't just foster. Ack, stress!