Weary

Do you ever get weary?
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I looked up weary - tired, especially in having run out of strength, patience or endurance.
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That is how I feel this weekend. I am weary.
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I am weary of all the household chores that never end.
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I am weary of worrying about my children's educational, medical and emotional needs.
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I am weary of feeling that so much depends on me.
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I am weary that so many people depend on me (some extended family and friends do quite a bit, financially and emotionally).
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I am weary that my husband is so far away all week.
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I am weary of holding down the fort.
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I am weary of school (even though I love it).
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I am so weary that even chocolate doesn't make it better.
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I need to create, to do a project. I need to do something just because I enjoy it. I need to do something for just me. Why is that such a hard thing? Why does everyone else seem to come first in my life?
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Am I whining? Is mom allowed to whine?
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This too shall pass...........perhaps a little chocolate wouldn't hurt.